I feel like I’m falling apart and too much is happening
I’ve nobody I trust at all nobody. I’m falling apart feel that I just want to curl up in a ball and cry and kill myself.. I can’t take how I feel anymore and I am going to explode or something.. I hate this all of this,,, too much shit happening can I please just go and die like right now!!!
Thank you so much for contacting us today. We appreciate you trusting us with such a big and personal feelings.
It sounds like you are having thoughts of suicide as you say you want to curl up in a ball and cry and kill yourself. Thoughts of suicide can be very difficult to manage, scary and often hard to talk about. We would like to acknowledge how brave you are for being honest and open about how you feel as we know how tough it can be for young people to share their experiences.
Try to remember thoughts about wanting to end your life are just thoughts, and you do not have to act on them. Also, just because you have these thoughts now, it doesn’t mean that you will always have them. The most important thing you can do if you are having thoughts about suicide is to talk to someone. It helps to tell someone how you feel. It means you don’t have to carry the weight of it around on your own.
You have the right to seek help for your health and wellbeing. Would you consider sharing your thoughts around ending your life with an adult you trust? You might have someone in your family you could chat to or someone at school. Perhaps talking to someone you don’t know might be easier. Organisations such as https://jigsaw.ie/ and https://spunout.ie/ might be a good starting point for you. There is also Pieta House, an organisation that deals exclusively with thoughts of suicide and self-harming behaviours. You can find out about their services here: https://www.pieta.ie/
When you’re feeling suicidal, you might think there is nothing that can help. You might feel alone and scared and it can be hard to know what to do. But things can get better. It is important to tell someone about how you feel. Childline is always available to listen to you, to support you and to help you find a way through it. You can get in touch with Childline at any time of the day or night. You are very welcome to contact us on our text service, 50101, instant messaging service on our website, www.childline.ie or give us a call on 1800 666 666. We will never ever judge anything that you say to us, and it is a safe place to talk openly about your thoughts and feelings.
Take care of yourself and remember you can use of any of our Childline services at any time, we are here to listen.