Alex's Answer
I feel hopeless
Your Question
Hello Alex. I don’t really know what to say, I just feel hopeless. I feel like I am a waste of a human being. I don’t want to be here anymore. My friends are awesome and my parents only fight sometimes, yet I feel like they would all be better off if I was dead. I have a therapist, but I don’t feel like I can talk to him, I don’t even know what’s wrong with me. My head hurts and the silence is too loud (if that makes sense). I don’t want to go back to school after the holidays, there are some people I just don’t want to face. I don’t know how to tell my parents about my girlfriend as I don’t know if they would be supportive of me being a lesbian. I just don’t know what to do. I don’t know where I feel safe, or where I belong. Thank you for listening, sorry.
Answer
Hello there, you are very welcome to Ask Alex,
We are really sorry to hear that you’re feeling this way, and we appreciate you reaching out. It takes courage to share your thoughts and feelings. It’s okay not to have all the answers right now. You’re not alone, and there are people who care about you.
Feeling overwhelmed and unsure about the future can be incredibly challenging, especially during your teenage years. It’s important to know that your feelings are valid, and it’s okay to look for support. Your friends and family might not fully understand what you’re going through, but reaching out to them can be an important step.
You mentioned having a therapist, and while it could feel difficult to open up, they are there to help you understand these feelings. Don’t hesitate to express your concerns and fears; they are trained to guide you through difficult times. If you are having thoughts of suicide, it is really important to speak to somebody immediately. If you feel you cannot talk about them with your therapist or your parents, perhaps talking to a service who specialise in supporting people with suicidal ideation like www.pieta.ie would be another option.
Remember, discovering your identity, including your sexual orientation, is a personal journey. It’s okay not to have all the answers now. You may find this article helpful, and it offers other support services too www.childline.ie/sexuality/. This article is about supporting people when their families or friends don’t accept their gender identity www.childline.ie/what-to-do-if-your-loved-ones-dont-accept-your-gender-identity/. As for school, facing certain people can be tough, but there are ways to cope and strategies to make these situations more manageable. Here are some suggestions www.childline.ie/top-tips-for-going-back-to-school/ that may work for you.
You are never alone, and there are people ready to support you. Reach out to those around you, including your therapist, and let them be a part of your journey toward understanding and healing. If you would like to talk to us some more, our Childline Team are here to help and support you too. We do not judge, and we can explore your options with you. You can contact us any time of the day or night, the Childline Listening service never closes, we are here for you 24/7/365. Our free-phone number is 1800 66 66 66 or you can use Live Chat on our website www.childline.ie. Â
Remember, you are important, you deserve to be here! You are not alone, please reach out for support without delay. Look after yourself,
Alex
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