I don't feel loved
Is it ok for my stepdad to touch my bum? He used to do it a lot when I was 10-13 and kinda stopped because I self-harmed myself at 11 because of it and because he would call me degrading names such as a whale and a cow. In around that time my sister was born and everything got worse and I just didn’t feel loved so I self harmed because of that too. But now looking back at him slapping my ass and telling me I’ve big tits for only being 12 makes me want to throw up. I still look up to him but I don’t feel like I’ll ever get over that.