Why am I not getting the support I need
Why aren’t CAHMS helping me? It’s literally their job to help and they brush me off or discharge me or just don’t see me for 6 months even though I want to kill myself. I hate myself. I want to die and no one cares. No one but people who can’t help on a professional level. I think I need to go to a ward but no one ever cares. I don’t want to tell my parents. They have enough because me and my brother have depression and autism. I need help and I can’t talk on the phone because I don’t want anyone to hear, if I try text peita it won’t let me. Just help me because the live chat won’t work and I don’t know what I’m doing, I’m 12 and just help me before I kill my self. I’m too stressed. I don’t feel hungry anymore, my friends are “too busy for friends” and it’s so annoying because no one takes me seriously. I’m sorry I just need help
Firstly, well done for reaching out to us. We can hear that you feel really let down by different organisations and people in your life. It shows a lot of resilience to keep trying when you feel you have not gotten the support you needed when you reached out before.
It is concerning to hear that you are having thoughts about suicide and that you have had to face such difficulties accessing support. It is really important that you get support with how you are feeling. When we feel suicidal, it can make it even harder to believe that there could be a solution or that things can get better as everything tends to feel so hopeless. We can assure you, that it is possible for things to get better if you get the right support.
It sounds like you have experienced a lot of trouble trying to access support from different support services. We are unaware about the specifics of your case, but we can hear that you really felt let down by the various organisations. Unfortunately, there are a lot of systemic problems with child mental health services in Ireland at the moment which can result in an inadequate level of support.
We are also sorry to hear that you had difficulties accessing our one to one chat. If this happens again, please wait a few minutes and try once more, as perhaps it was a technical issue at that time. You mentioned that you cannot access Childline by the phone, as you do not want people to overhear you speaking, and that is understandable.
The important thing to remember is that there is support available and you deserve to get access to it. You mentioned that you don’t feel you can talk to your parents at the moment. We wonder if you feel you could talk to another trusted adult like a teacher or your GP. Sometimes young people find it really useful to talk to other trusted adults in their lives, so this might be a good option for you.
You are also very welcome to contact Childline again. We hope that you find it easier to get through the next time. You can phone us on 1800 66 66 66 if you do get some time alone. You can also try contact us through our Live Chat on www.childline.ie. again, just click on the Live Chat tab and type ‘hello’ to start the chat. Childline services are free and confidential, and are available 24 hours, 7 days a week.
We really hope that you get the support that you need and deserve and that things start to get better for you.
Take care of yourself.