To Pat / 25 May 2019
Topic: My best friend died
Recently (maybe two weeks ago) an old best friend of mine died. She had cancer for the past two years and died at her last hurdle. She was meant to be coming back to school in February. I’m 15 and we drifted apart at 13. I didn’t want to show up when I heard she got sick because I thought it would seem fake of me- as if I’m only there because I feel bad or something. Now she’s dead and I wish I got to speak to her one last time. My mom has comforted me and knows how horrible I feel about it. Her death broke my heart. She knows the affect it has had on me. Today, we got in a fight, and she picked up the funeral booklet of my best friend (the funeral was last week) which was lying on the counter, and waved it in my face to shut me up. It hurt me so so much and she knew it would. That’s emotional abuse and it was completely deliberate. Using my dead best friend to hurt me is probably the lowest, most inhuman thing anyone could possibly do. She hasn’t shown any remorse whatsoever. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want her in my life but as a minor I have no say in the matter. I feel trapped and horrible. What do I do?