Pat's Answer

To Pat / 31 July 2020

I want to kill myself every night

Your Question

My life is perfect….but i wanna kill my self every night

From Pat / 26/August 2020


Hi, you are very welcome to Ask Pat.  

You are saying that you feel even though your life is perfect, every night you want to kill yourself. It seems like you have put a lot of thought into your feelings and have established that they arise at night. Your awareness of this is a great starting point for you. 

Our feelings and thoughts are very important but how we manage those thoughts and feelings is important as well. Reaching out to us at Ask Pat is a positive thing that you have done. We are wondering if you have a trusted adult in your life that you could share your feelings with. That adult could be a parent, a relative or a sports coach. Sometimes talking to someone can really help share the worries. You have the right to get help and support around the feelings you are having about killing yourself.  

We are concerned to hear that you have suicidal thoughts at night. There are services available to give you support and advice around suicidal ideation. and are two websites where you can find some guidance and help. The Childline website also has some articles where you may find some help too You may need to talk to a professional like a doctor or a counsellor. You have the right to this help, even if  you think your life is perfect.

Services at Childline are also available to you 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. The services are free. At Childline we do not judge you or tell you what to do. We are confidential which means we don’t trace calls or we don’t use IP addresses or trace numbers. Childline is a safe place for you to chat about your feelings and thoughts.  We would love to hear from you if you wish to chat some more about what’s going on for you. You can contact us by phone on 1800 66 66 66, by text at 50101, or by web chat at

Your call, text or web chat is very important to us and now that you know we are available 24 hours a day, you know that you are not alone. If you are comfortable contacting us when you are having your suicidal thoughts, we will be there for you. 

Thank you so much for being brave and sharing how you are feeling. We appreciate how hard that can be, but you have taken a big step. 

Ask Pat wishes you all the best.

Take care, 


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