Pat's Answer
I want to die, and I want to die now
Your Question
I won’t sugarcoat anything. I want to die. And i want to die now. All my worries would disappear if i did and id be in complete bliss
Answer
Hello, thank you for reaching out to Ask Pat. You are very welcome.
It is very brave of you to tell us about your thoughts and how you are feeling. We know sometimes it can be difficult to explain and talk about our worries but talking to others does give us strength and may give us the support you deserve.
You say you want to die. You feel if you die then all the worries you are experiencing would disappear and you would be in complete bliss. It sounds like you have a lot going on in your thoughts and feelings.
We are very concerned to hear that you want to die. You have a right to live your life and be alive. We are sorry you are feeling worried and think the only way to get rid of your worries is to kill yourself. Have you spoken to your family about your suicidal thoughts? If you are finding it difficult to talk to someone in your family do you have another adult in your life who you trust or feel comfortable talking to about your thoughts and feelings? This adult could be a relative, neighbour, school counsellor, or your local doctor. You have a right to be listened to, to be understood, and to be heard. You have a right to seek help and support. Do you know your family has a responsibility to look after you and care for you, as well as listening to you?
You are not alone, help and support is available to you. You may like to look at this website to help you understand what is going on for you or it may offer you a way to avail of other supports, [email protected]. Headstrong is the National Centre for Youth Mental Health. The ISPCC Childline website also has some information and articles you may find helpful www.childline.ie/suicide/; www.childline.ie/how-i-feel/. It is important for your own mental wellbeing that you get the help and support you deserve.
You are welcome to talk to the Childline Team by phone on 1800 66 66 66 or chat one-to-one with us online on our web chat www.childline.ie, or through our text service on 50101. We do not judge anything you say to us and we will not tell you what to do. We are available 24 hours 7 day a week and these services are free and confidential.
We are here for you and if you would like to talk or chat about your worries or anything else going on in your life, we would love to chat to you.
You are so brave, thank you for sharing your thoughts and feelings with us. We really hope to hear from you soon. Take care,
Pat