I try my best to accomplish things
I’m always trying my best to accomplish things so I can do good in school but I always fail, making my parents angry at me, not wanting me, and making me think if they’ll even care if I kill myself, what do I do?
Hello, you are very welcome to Ask Pat. Thank you so much for reaching out to us and sharing your thoughts and feelings.
You are telling us that you are trying your best in school and that you want to do well but you feel like you are always failing. You think this makes your parents angry at you and you feel that your parents do not want you and they would not care if you killed yourself. You feel unsure about what to do.
It sounds like you have a lot going on in your life, in school and at home and it is understandable how you are feeling. You are struggling with the expectations you and your parents have put on you to do your best in school. You are taking the right steps in reaching out, talking and seeking help. That is such a brave thing to do.
We would be very concerned to hear that you feel that your parents would not care if you killed yourself. You have the right to get help and support about your thoughts and feelings and you have the right to be heard. Have you spoken to your parents about how you are feeling, or would there be another trusted adult in your life that you can talk to? This adult could be a grandparent, aunt, uncle or a teacher.
You are telling us that you do not know what to do. It is important for your mental wellbeing that you get the help and support that you deserve. There are organizations and websites which may be of help to you, which you might like to have a look at. They may help you understand how you are feeling and what you are going through. www.jigsaw.ie; www.yourmentalhealth.ie; www.spunout.ie (if you are over 16), are just 3. The Childline website has some articles too, which you can have a read through www.childline.ie/how-i-feel/ and www.childline.ie/getting-help/ are 2 of many.
You do not have to go through this alone. If you feel you cannot talk to somebody that you know just yet, then Childline is here for you and we really would love to listen to you. At Childline we are focused on you and what is important to you. The services are free and available twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week. The team do not judge anything you say but will listen to everything you wish to share. The ways in which you can get in contact with Childline are through the telephone service 1800 66 66 66, through the text service on 50101, or by web chat that you access through the website www.childline.ie
We hope that you find some of the above helpful. Remember you already have made a great attempt in reaching out and describing what’s going on for you.
We hope to hear from you soon. Take care of yourself,