I think everybody hates me. I’m an unwanted child...
I think everybody hates me. My grandma, mom and dad, just like I’m unwanted child. And they always say like “you’re just a girl, you can’t become what u want”. But first of all, I’m human too. I have my dream, and my brain is still working. And what I really wanting is just the courage, love and trust. Wanna live as I want. If they won’t change, I can’t live too. So, should I die or run away?
Hello, you’re very welcome to Ask Pat.
We are sorry to hear that your family make you feel like you’re unwanted. It is not a nice feeling to have. It sounds like there is a lot going on for you right now but you have been very brave in reaching out and seeking support from Ask Pat.
It sounds like you know what you want which is a really good thing. You mention your dream and living how you want, along with having courage, love, and trust. What does your dream look like? Whether you are a girl or a boy, everybody has the right to take part in different activities and to express themselves as long as it does not intentionally hurt you or others. You deserve the chance to work towards that and your own unique identity. You mentioned that you want to live as you want, and it seems like you would like some changes from your family. What would those changes look like for you? You have the right to live in a safe and happy environment where you are respected and treated fairly. Have you spoken to anyone around how you are feeling? We know that it can be tough talking about our thoughts and feelings but it can help talking to someone you trust like a friend, a teacher, or someone else in your family like an uncle or aunt.
You ask if you should die or run away. At Childline we would be concerned to hear anyone is feeling like they want to die or run away from home. If you ever think you are in immediate danger of hurting yourself, we strongly suggest talking to a GP or going to your nearest A&E. If you are thinking about running away, you have a right to be safe and talk to a trusted adult about your situation. You can call the Missing Children’s Hotline at 116 000 for support.
You also have the right to get further help and support from someone if you want to chat about what is going on for you some more. If you do not feel like there is someone in your life that you are comfortable talking to, then there is always the option of contacting Childline. Childline is always here to listen to you and is a place where you can talk about anything you want to. You can call Childline on 1800 66 66 66 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Or if you would prefer online, you can contact our webchat on childline.ie or send a text message to 50101.
You may want to look at the following articles on the Childline website as they give some information on some of the things you have talked about today: https://www.childline.ie/your-rights/; https://www.childline.ie/getting-along-with-family/; https://www.childline.ie/running-away/
Thank you for getting in touch and for sharing how you are feeling right now, as it is not always an easy thing to do. Please know that you can contact us in Childline at any time, we are here for you.