I am extremely suicidal
I’m scared there’s no help for me. I am extremely suicidal, and I have tried every resource known to man – I’ve called a suicide hotline, I’ve tried the text services, I’ve attended in-person therapy and I’ve done some sessions at Jigsaw, but nothing has helped, I can’t open up and nothing works. I still want to kill myself. What do I do?
Welcome to Ask Pat, thank you for your question.
You say you are suicidal and have sought help from some services, but nothing has helped you. You say you can’t open–up, that nothing has worked for you. You say you want to kill yourself. You are asking us what can you do?
We are concerned to hear that you may be feeling suicidal and that you are unable to open–up about your feelings. You are very brave to share your thoughts and feelings with us and we are glad that you contacted us. It is understandable that you may find it difficult to talk about your feelings especially if you have had a traumatic experience in the past.
You have the right to be happy and to be heard, which means that you have the right to talk to a trusted adult about what is going on for you. You are so brave to avail of the support services that are there for you too, and you still have the right to keep searching and to get the answers and the right support you are looking for. It is important that you find out why you are suicidal, what has led you to this point.
If you are thinking of acting on your thoughts of suicide, it is important to seek medical help immediately! Please contact your local GP, call the emergency services at 999 or 112, or present yourself to an A&E department.
You mentioned you have contacted a suicide helpline, that you did face-to-face therapy and even some sessions at Jigsaw, but nothing has helped. Would it be possible that none of these supports have helped you because you have not been able to open–up to anyone? We know that sometimes it might be difficult to share how we are feeling, but it is important for your mental and physical well-being that you continue to look for the help and support that you deserve, the support that will work for you. You have the right to live a happy life. Do you have the support of your family? How do you get along with your parents, other family members like uncles or aunts, or even your teachers? It is the responsibilities of these adults in your life to make sure that you get help and support when you need it.
You do not have to go through this alone. There are websites you can look at, organisations which can offer help and support to you. Here are some you might find helpful, www.yourmentalhealth.ie and www.pieta.ie and www.aware.ie/information/depression/. You might also like to read some articles on the Childline website, www.childline.ie/how-i-feel/.
If you feel that you cannot talk to anyone around you just yet, maybe you would like to talk a little further with us? The Childline Team would really love to listen to you. You are welcome to talk to Childline by phone on 1800 66 66 66, by text to 50101, or through our web chat on www.childline.ie. Childline is here for you anytime, we are available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. The services are free and confidential. We are non-judgemental, and we will not tell you what to do. We can help you explore what options may be available to you.
Thank you for reaching out to us. We are here to listen, and we are here for you whenever you would like to chat. Please get in touch with us soon.
Take care of yourself,