I feel like I can’t have normal, human thoughts without getting punished for it, and I don’t know what to do.
Hi How come whenever something good happens to me, something really bad happens next? I even feel like when I think things that could be a (little) rude, or just judging people sometimes (of course I don’t do this often, and I keep it to myself) I get karma? I feel like I can’t have normal, human thoughts without getting punished for it, and I don’t know what to do. I cry a lot so when this happens I feel like the world is against me. Today I judged someone a little, and i got karma. I feel so alone and upset, like at this point, what else have you got to throw at me? I just need some advice, because I seriously believe that some kind of force is giving me karma. I feel like I’ve done something wrong. When something good happens, I always worry, I think to myself, “I know what’s coming”
Hello, you’re very welcome to Ask Pat.
Thank you for your sharing your thoughts with us, we know it can be a rather difficult thing to do however, you have done it very well.
From what you have said, it sounds like you’re feeling confused about your thinking patterns and how they may be impacting your everyday life. You feel as though there is some kind of force giving you karma and you feel alone and upset. It sounds like you’re going through a challenging time and you are unsure about what will happen next for you. However, you have taken the first step by sharing and speaking about your thoughts; we know that sharing what we are experiencing with another person can help make things better. Is there a trusted adult in your life that you could speak to? This may be a parent, aunt or uncle, neighbour, or a teacher. You have the right to get support around how you are feeling.
If you feel you cannot talk to somebody you know just yet, then Childline is here for you, and we would really love to listen to you. Childline is a free service that is available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You can contact us through our telephone service 1800 66 66 66, through our text service on 50101, or by web chat that you can access through the website www.childline.ie.
The Childline website has some articles which you can have a read through on the various types of thought patterns: https://www.childline.ie/the-3-main-types-of-overthinking-and-how-to-overcome-them/. You might like to take a read through the following as well: https://spunout.ie/category/voices/advice .
We hope you find this helpful. Remember, you have already made a great attempt to get some support by reaching out and describing what is going on for you. You are very brave for doing so.
Take care of yourself,