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Abused for 8 years

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I was a 16 year old girl. I was raped and sexually abused for 8 years,from 4 years to 12 years by my closest relative. I was rejected by my love at 13. I always imagine my self being raped by someone. I also feel like killing myself cause I wasn’t focusing on my studies as well as my family members hates me. why I am like this? do I have any solution? how to stop picturising me being raped? please help me 


Hi there, welcome to Ask Alex!
First and foremost, we want to commend you for having the courage to share your story. It’s a huge step, and it shows your strength and bravery. What you’ve been through is incredibly tough, and it’s important to acknowledge your feelings—they are valid and understandable.
You mentioned experiencing recurring thoughts and images of the traumatic events you endured. This is a common response to trauma and is something that many people who have experienced similar situations struggle with. It’s important to seek professional help to work through these thoughts and feelings. Therapists and counsellors are trained to help people heal from trauma. Organisations like Jigsaw and Aware  can provide support for mental health and emotional well-being. CARI is an organisation that supports young people who have been through child sexual abuse.
If you ever feel like you might harm yourself, it’s crucial to seek immediate help. Contact emergency services at 999 or 112, or go to the nearest Emergency Department. Pieta House also offers support for those experiencing suicidal thoughts.
Talking to a trusted person in your life, such as a friend, family member, or teacher, can also be a helpful step. Sharing your feelings with someone who cares about you can provide comfort and support. Remember, you have the right to report the abuse to the Gardaí, and there are people who will support you through that process.
You are never alone. The Childline team is here to support you and explore your options with you. We are open 24 hours a day, every day. You can contact us for free at 1800 66 66 66, or by Messenger at (just click on the purple chat icon).
Remember, there is hope and there are people who care about you and want to help you through this difficult time.
Look after yourself, and reach out anytime for support,

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