kate123July 20, 2010#1
Okay so basically I'm not really bothered doing anything anymore. Even getting out of bed is a chore i just want to stay there and just sleep forever. I have gone through a lot in my life including my Dad cheating on my Mam I only know of two times but there could be more I'm not sure, he's also an alcoholic and has been for years. I did get shielded from it when I was younger but I soon coped on as I got older. My mother gets depressed a lot as well and I hate seeing her like that but I know I can't help her. My sister only really cares about herself and her boyfriend she barely ever has a proper conversation with me that isn't just what she did in work that day. I talk to my brother's girlfriend a lot but she's not always around. They all say they care about me doing well in school but I just don't believe them I don't know why but it feels like they don't care. I want to make something of myself but I just don't feel bothered doing anything everything seems like such a daunting task. If it was up to me I wouldn't even bother eating or washing or anything I wish I could just lie in bed all day. I don't know if that's me being lazy because I have just finished 4th year which everyone calls a doss year but I care about absolutely nothing and it's sort of sad I don't. What do i do????
ChildlineJuly 21, 2010#2
Hi Kate123
Sounds as if you are feeling a bit down at the moment. You mention that your dad had, and continues to have, a problem with alcohol. It is understandable that you would find this upsetting but it is important to remember that you are not responsible for your dad's behaviour or lifestyle. Being young can be a difficult time but try to concentrate about the things that are good in your life. You are in fourth year in school and when you say "they all say they care about you doing well" we presume you mean your family. It sounds like they care about you and your education, perhaps it may be helpful if you were to believe that they are sincere about what they say.
You also mention that you feel like staying in bed all day and you don’t know if that is you being lazy. It is O.K. to feel lazy once in a while, particularly after a long year at school but it is also important to practice a varied lifestyle, keeping a good balance between a time to rest and relax and a time to work and pursue other interests. Perhaps you might think of joining a youth or sports club or participating in Summer Camp activities. Think about ways of making new friends and sharing your life with existing friends. It may also be important to speak with someone such as doctor who may be able to support you through this. We all need to turn to someone at some stage and talk to people we trust. Many young people go through similar experiences and it’s good to know that you don’t have to go through this alone.
You say your Mum gets depressed a lot and it may help you both if you were to talk to her and share some of your interests with her. What about asking her if she would like to, say, go to a film with you and enjoy an evening out together. Life is for living and to enjoy. Stay safe, take care and have fun. We are always here if you want to chat. You can do this by dropping a private message, or by logging on to our One to One Live Talk Service available from 6 to 10 p.m. Mondays/ Tuesdays and every other day except Sunday from 2- 10 p.m. You can also text Talk to 50101 during those times.
Bye for now Kate.